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Name: Jennel
Birthday: 7/26/1988
Gender: Female
Interests: Myself, naturally, how could it be any other way?
Music, largely jazz, but also rock, classical, emo, alternative, top 40, anything but country!!!
Shopping
Acting, stage and other, esp. musicals!
Performance and attention getting in general
Boys
.:these are in order, i think:.
Expertise: Singing technique
Swimming
English (grammar, spelling, word usage)
Occupation: Education/training
Industry: Other
Message: message me
AIM:  BaliBaliUbutMo
MSN: princesswonderful@msn.com
Member Since:
11/11/2004
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| The following is the tale of a late summer night, when I couldn't sleep for the twisting in my stomach.
I was lying in bed, staring at the darkened ceiling, and those eyes,
light-colored but undiluted, seemed to twinkle back at me. My
gaze drifted to the drapes, and I could see the silhouette coming in
through the half light. Taken far aback, I threw the curtains
open, but saw only grass and trees and flowers. I saw no
one. I sighed and laid back down. But when I closed my
eyes, that face seemed to blossom across the blackness. I turned
over, trying to shake that image, but I could not seem to escape the
eyes, penetrating, probing, promising to break my heart. I
climbed out of bed and went into the bathroom. I flipped on the
light and shut my eyes, waiting until opening them wouldn't hurt
me. Finally, I blinked a few times and gazed into the
mirror. I leaned on the counter, depressed with what I saw, and
sighed again. Crooked nose, asymmetrical eyebrows, and pale,
almost translucent skin. I stood there for what seemed like
hours, hating the length of my hair and the shape of my lips, the girth
of my waist and the length of my toes. At last, I sat down, right
where I was, and leaned back against the wall, oddly conscious of my
heartbeat. I breathed deeply, in and out, in and out. I
stayed like that for awhile.
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| Today after work Tiana and I went to Quizno's for lunch, where we ran into an old pal working there and we ate with him and I think he never wants to see us or speak to us again lol. ;) After that we rode the bus for like a half hour to 45 minutes, but then when we got to the transit center, we had to wait like almost an hour for our other bus to come so we ended up spending like an hour and a half in transit on that trip. We went to Vakker to turn in our class lists and mailers, and Brady had a no-show so we just went back in his studio and hung out with him for like an hour or so. He gave us otter pops and twix.  The otter pop was kinda ghetto  but still good. Anyhow, after hanging out with him, we went to the mall and hung out with Perise for like a couple hours. Then I came home and now I'm here. I had a really fun time today. There really isn't any food atmy house and I have to get ready for my party on friday. I think it's going to be pretty small. But fun. So if you didn't already find out, it's friday at like 5:30 PM at newcastle beach/park. It's a picnic and if you need any other details, hit me up, cause I want everybody to be there! Bye, beautiful people! | | |
| An extra post for today. I guess I wax pensive.
I'm sitting here immaculately, moisturized, painstakingly painted and
sculpted, ready for evenings out. How often must I review the
past and relive the humiliations? The moon is my only companion
in my musings, ageless and silently neutral. The breeze breathes
soulful melodies into my hair, and the stars twinkle palely in
the velvet sky. It is hard to express the feelings currently in
my soul. It cries out desperately for a hand for mine to fit
inside, and to appear small next to. Complications frustrate it,
when all it really wants is a friend. Still, while the soul only
wants a regular friend, the heart wouldn't mind a friend who could take
it on a date-esque outing and not have it be a whole huge
commitment. They don't have to be committal,
just fun. But the days when that might happen are past.
Nobody goes on a non-committal date anymore. It always has
to be something.
Well I follow'd her to the station
with her suitcase in my hand.
I follow'd her to the station
with her suitcase in my hand.
You know, it's hard to tell, it's hard to tell
when all your love's in vain...
All my love's in vain.
When the train roll'd into the station,
I look'd her straight in the eye.
When the train roll'd into the station,
I look'd her straight in the eye.
I felt so lonesome, I felt so lonesome,
All I could do was cry.
All my love's in vain.
When the train left the station,
There were two lights on behind.
When the train left the station,
There were two lights on behind.
The blue light, it was my heart.
The red light it was my mind.
All my love was in vain....
I think that's a Robert Johnson song.
I have missed my friends so much over the past
week and a half. I can't wait to see them...
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| Well. I just got home from Trek, and if you don't know what that is, I don't really want to explain it right now. I had a really good time though, and I'm glad to be home and indoors and showered and conditioned and so on. I think I lost like 5 pounds. I have bruises all over my body from sleeping on rocks. And I had bad allergies all 4 days. But SOMEHOW, I had a really great time! I sang a song in front of everybody on Friday, and the violinist messed up but I kept going, and then I sang the wrong words to one of the verses, but I was cool about it and just carried on like nothing happened. :) But I didn't sound as good as I could have. :( I made a couple of really good friends that I like, and I am pretty sure I'm buff now. I hardly know what to say else. I'm really glad I went. I'm REALLY glad to be back!!! I feel like shopping or doing something else really frivolous and luxuriant, but I just don't think I can do that this time. I may go to a dance. No matter what I do, I think I'll have fun. I've been dying for a fatburger all week. I've never gone 20 hours without eating before, but now I can say I have. Also I know how to waltz, but it turns out I was learning the boy part and I cannot follow. I'm going to have to learn the girl part now. Obnoxious. Anyhow, leave me love notes, my darlings, I'm going back to my life of wonders!!
PS sorry this was so random and disconnected! | | |
| Well, summer's officially begun. Work is hard, one of my co-workers keeps being mean to me. :( Everyone's seen batman but me, and my teeth hurt like a mutha. That being said, Nick and Aaron and I went to Jack in the Box today and we had a really good time, I thought. I like hanging around with those two, they make me feel more fun than I actually am. After that I had an orthodontist appointment at which I briefly saw someone I had hoped never to see again, but I also saw a name on the sign-in list that I think may be the mother of a friend of mine. Hm. I watched Beauty and the Beast today. I love that movie passionately. Did you know that Jerry Orbach, the recently deceased cast member of Law and Order, did the voice for Lumiere? Truth.
Last night Tiana and I went to The All-Time Lamest Party Ever. So we went to Kidd Valley and then back to my house and then back to her house where we watched Hitch, which is a great movie, by the way. Tomorrow I'm finally getting fabric for my Trek dresses, thank goodness, because I really need to start those things before it's too late and I have to go wearing stupid clothes.
I JUST FOUND A SECRET SUPPLY OF OTTER POPS UNDER THE BREAD!!! AAAAAAAAAHAHAHHAA THE DAY IS MINE!
Okay, post-lapse me says, I need to start getting out more. Don't you think? I'd say so. I'm off work all next week, so if you want to do anything, I'm DOWN yo! give me a jingle! | | |
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